Ok so I have to say that I can really feel the love tonight, but lately it has been more and more every night. I am getting love from places I wouldn't think about getting it. I have had some rough times in my life and lately I feel that though I am having some rough spots the love keeps coming.
Some people have told me they love me lately and that has put a huge impression on my life that I must be doing something right. I want to start with my loving wife. Tracy is so wonderful and has supported me and helped me through so much lately and I am so grateful for all her support. I know that she has been through some really tough times that has changed her perception on what love is supposed to be like. A year ago we were not even in a position to want to talk to each other and now we are so focused on each other I can actually feel her love. I see her love in her decision making and how she interacts with my other siblings as well.
Mom told me yesterday that she loved me. I was there for mom as she cried at James Funeral and I have never desired to be close to mom before. I know love is a word that people just throw around and it can be meant as an excuse when people do things for others and they want to say something to make others feel better, But I can honestly say that mom meant it in a way that she truly does have a special place for me in her heart. I know that her and I have had our spats but I have grown more to love Joyce more now then I ever have in the past. Mother in laws can sometimes be the Cruella De Ville in their children's marriage but Joyce has always been such a wonderful person. I want to say that I really am grateful for Joyce and she is what I have always wanted my mom to be in my life. I guess I was jealous of Tracy because she has such a wonderful mom.
Tracy's sisters and brothers have been supportive of Tracy and I working through our tough times even though I had felt I didn't belong they are making me feel welcome in their homes and I am grateful for them.
My brother Stan has really been such a huge help for me this last 9 months since we have reconnected. I have seen him so much and he is being my big brother again as I had in my youth. He is about to get married to a wonderful girl and she and Tracy have been getting really close. Although I have been getting a few offers here in Texas to work, his door is still open to Tracy, Jr and I for us to move there if this is what Heavenly Father wants. I am just so grateful that I have a family here on earth that loves me as I have family waiting for me in Heaven to see me make it to the Celestial Kingdom.
I hope all of you can feel the love of your family and others in your lives.
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I love your blog! It's so great, and I'm so glad to hear how much you feel loved right now! Especially at such a trying time in your life! You're able to find blessings in the little things that may not have mattered before and use it as a way to strengthen your family and your faith! I'm so impressed, and so happy for you and Tracy both!!!!
Thanks Sonia. Tracy and I have decided to Move to Denver but I will not be working with my brother. This makes it more of a journey because I need to find work. I may stay here and continue to look for work and not go up there until the baby is born but who knows. Mom is supposed to come and help tracy out and if the baby will come in less then a month then why go up there now ya know.
I will just keep praying and hope that we decide on what to do soon.
Hey Jeff...Good Luck with your job interview in Houston on Friday…
Houston is nice.... It is just a little humid sometimes!
You Guys Have a Safe Trip! :-)
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